There has been a huge theme in my work around marriage these days. On a Spirit level I need to address that the old format of the 1950's marriage is no longer applicable today.
Those of us on the planet today made an agreement to come in at the time - the age of Authenticity is how I experience it. The external places that we came to pretend to feel safe no longer keeps us safe. Broken families, broken marriages, broken religion for some people, job loss. We are living in a time so full of intuition that if you don't follow your higher self and get the lessons, the result is far from suddle. We are called to live in Authenticity once and for all.
For me this is good news. Coming from a broken home, created in me, a fear to even think of a family of my own. After years of healing I felt that I could marry and do it right. When I met Mr. Right I was just so grateful to have something of my own I took on the patterns of a 1950's wife; quit work, cleaned, cooked, laundry etc, and life appeared great.
However, as I quit being Katie in the name of being married, another symptom showed itself. When I quit my job to have our daughter I bought a $25 home espresso maker and my husband chastised me for doing so. I thought I was being amazing because till then I was spending $3.00 a day on my precious coffee. Then when our daughter was born, my marriage became strained and I saw sides of my husband that I didn't know existed. I convinced myself that it was normal stress of caring for a beautiful baby.
We then moved to New England after her birth. Though I kept up my 1950 wifely duties I had suspicion that my husband was looking for connection outside. I'm not going to go into the details, let's just say that in my marriage - when I stopped being grateful for just being married, and I began practicing living as Katie again - my marriage got better. And it couldn't be more true today - I am obsessed with being myself and if I'm unsure of what I truly want I'll stop and say, "What do I want to do or experience now." My husband and children support my life because they know that if I say it - I mean it. And when I mean it - I'm happy and that joy shines back on them.
The 1950's pattern of a healthy life just doesn't fit anymore. Husbands want to stay home and raise the kids, woman do want to work and bring home a paycheck. No one's interested in the Marter anymore. No one appreciates her sacrifice and resentment. No one really notices when you are being a Marter and not living the life that you want to life. And no one wants to be blamed for it anymore.
Marriage is more precious then ever because for the first time in recorded history perhaps - we are marrying and staying married because we truly want to be together. Isn't the truth far sweeter then the illusion of time?
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
Friday, October 21, 2011
Christmas heart
One of my favorite holiday's is Christmas. I love the lights, the music, the food, but especially the need and desire to connect with friends and family. I realize as the years go by that my work is much like the intention of the holidays - taking time to remember that we're all connected, that no matter what state the relationship is in - we love each other and that the illusion of death does not end our love or connection.
As we turn into the holiday season I urge you to stay connected and speak with your loved one that have crossed over. For fun ~ ask a specific person to send you a sign, watch and take note. If you are like me and have held onto a person or a past tradition that went away when your loved one died, be brave and think of how you will celebrate the season with your own style and create a new tradition. I know it's hard to let go of the past if it was sweet, but be grateful that you had it, and open your mind and your heart to the truth that it's still your time to shine. Be brave, shine and be joyous.
p.s. If you do not experience a sign from your loved one be patient, some spirits on the other side need practice manipulating the energy in this dimention. Have compassion for both them and yourself.
Love,
Katie
As we turn into the holiday season I urge you to stay connected and speak with your loved one that have crossed over. For fun ~ ask a specific person to send you a sign, watch and take note. If you are like me and have held onto a person or a past tradition that went away when your loved one died, be brave and think of how you will celebrate the season with your own style and create a new tradition. I know it's hard to let go of the past if it was sweet, but be grateful that you had it, and open your mind and your heart to the truth that it's still your time to shine. Be brave, shine and be joyous.
p.s. If you do not experience a sign from your loved one be patient, some spirits on the other side need practice manipulating the energy in this dimention. Have compassion for both them and yourself.
Love,
Katie
Monday, October 3, 2011
I Broke the Tim Burton Code
Ah~ha...I figured it out!
Like many of you I have adored the work of Tim Burton on a level that I have not experienced in another director. His work across the board moves me to the core. I often wondered if I wanted to be a director and that's why I like him. Should I draw even though I don't particularly enjoy it? Should I dress funky and watch old horror movies all the time? How can I be more like him? I love his fearlessness. I love that he makes movies "his way" and everyone knows it when they see his work. I love that he understand the things that I do: that not all things that "look" nice are, and those things that appear "odd" are often real and wonderful. I related to Jack the pumpkin king to a tee. I've lived my life mostly to do what others think I should. I've been attracted all my life to people that are free to express themselves and fill others lives by doing so. "How do they do that," I'd say. What the hell is the code.
Alas ~ I've discovered it.
From what I can see Tim was an only child and his parents weren't particularly tuned in to him. He was alone and lonely and if he came out of his room with his hair in a bush, no one was there to say, "go comb your hair." In other words - no one was there to tell him to do things their way.....His foundation was founded on "doing things on his own and his own way."
This weekend I was driving and I had the CD "Ask and it is Giving," by Jerry and Ester Hicks playing. One of the exercises was to visualize that you are a movie director and you get to decide how things will look, how people will act and where the scene will take place. It's an exercise in stretching your mind to think of what things would look like if "you" were in charge. And that was it - Tim does a movie and tells everyone who, where and what it will look like. In the end the movie looks like Tim.
For those of us that had someone telling us who we should be, what we should look like and where we should live - that practice is beyond difficult. But it is the key. As you know I've been obsessed with living authentically, finding out what I like and practicing living everyday "what do I WANT in this moment." Finally my life is more grand then I ever dreamed possible. Why - because the dreams I dreamed previous to a large degree were based on what someone dreamed for me and how I would fulfill their dreams for them...
Tim is special because he is one of the few that was free to be himself as a child. Those of us that put on our social masks first thing in the morning have a difficult time leaving it home in the morning. But practice, practice leaving that damn mask at home, step into your life in your full glory, and if you don't know what that is - practice. With every choice of the day practice asking yourself, "do I want this, and how would I do this, how would I wear this, how would I put this." It will take time, but one day your life will look like you maybe for the first time.
I love the analogy of being a director. Let's decided that our lives are the one movie we will make. Let's decide for ourselves what it will look like.
I've had to confront family members that say, "well if you love me you'll buy this car or do what I say.: As Byron Katie says in her book, "I need your love, Is that true," that's not love, it's approval.
Like many of you I have adored the work of Tim Burton on a level that I have not experienced in another director. His work across the board moves me to the core. I often wondered if I wanted to be a director and that's why I like him. Should I draw even though I don't particularly enjoy it? Should I dress funky and watch old horror movies all the time? How can I be more like him? I love his fearlessness. I love that he makes movies "his way" and everyone knows it when they see his work. I love that he understand the things that I do: that not all things that "look" nice are, and those things that appear "odd" are often real and wonderful. I related to Jack the pumpkin king to a tee. I've lived my life mostly to do what others think I should. I've been attracted all my life to people that are free to express themselves and fill others lives by doing so. "How do they do that," I'd say. What the hell is the code.
Alas ~ I've discovered it.
From what I can see Tim was an only child and his parents weren't particularly tuned in to him. He was alone and lonely and if he came out of his room with his hair in a bush, no one was there to say, "go comb your hair." In other words - no one was there to tell him to do things their way.....His foundation was founded on "doing things on his own and his own way."
This weekend I was driving and I had the CD "Ask and it is Giving," by Jerry and Ester Hicks playing. One of the exercises was to visualize that you are a movie director and you get to decide how things will look, how people will act and where the scene will take place. It's an exercise in stretching your mind to think of what things would look like if "you" were in charge. And that was it - Tim does a movie and tells everyone who, where and what it will look like. In the end the movie looks like Tim.
For those of us that had someone telling us who we should be, what we should look like and where we should live - that practice is beyond difficult. But it is the key. As you know I've been obsessed with living authentically, finding out what I like and practicing living everyday "what do I WANT in this moment." Finally my life is more grand then I ever dreamed possible. Why - because the dreams I dreamed previous to a large degree were based on what someone dreamed for me and how I would fulfill their dreams for them...
Tim is special because he is one of the few that was free to be himself as a child. Those of us that put on our social masks first thing in the morning have a difficult time leaving it home in the morning. But practice, practice leaving that damn mask at home, step into your life in your full glory, and if you don't know what that is - practice. With every choice of the day practice asking yourself, "do I want this, and how would I do this, how would I wear this, how would I put this." It will take time, but one day your life will look like you maybe for the first time.
I love the analogy of being a director. Let's decided that our lives are the one movie we will make. Let's decide for ourselves what it will look like.
I've had to confront family members that say, "well if you love me you'll buy this car or do what I say.: As Byron Katie says in her book, "I need your love, Is that true," that's not love, it's approval.
Friday, September 16, 2011
Psychic Child: From Fear to Freedom
Boy do I know the fears of seeing a ghost or being paralyzed by a "negative" situation. I saw ghosts, talked with my passed Grandpa Goerger and knew what was true without having the age of wisdom to understand. By far the worst thing I dealt with when I was a little girl were cougars. Around the age of 6 I saw cougars (They looked like Panthers because they were Big Black cats that only appeared in the dark) that would swarm my bed as I slept and follow me as I was terrified enough to run to my parents room in the middle of the night. The only thing my mom and dad could say was, "oh honey, it's your imagination. Don't worry." But I knew better, they were real and I was terrified. With both of my parents not seeing them only made it scarier to me. 20 years later I learned that they were there protecting me and helping me come into my own power. In the other room at age 6 were my parents discussing their inevitable divorce.
Fast forward 25 years later I am at my son's three year check up. The Doctor says, "At this age they start to talk about seeing monsters and Ghosts. Just put some G.I Joe's in the window and they'll be ok." I smirked and felt irritated at the lack information she has. Putting G.I Joe's around a child that sees ghosts and other things is as affective as putting that G.I Joe in front of a speaker with music coming out and expecting the music to stop. Ghost, spirits and animals are a real thing. Not all people see them but that doesn't mean they are not there. Just as we cannot see (thank God) the hundreds of radio, TV, cell phone signals that surround us in every moment. If we have the proper equipment i.e. stereo, cell phone, TV, we can "tune in" to that signal and receive the information. That is what Psychic Children are doing. They have trained their soul through many life times of work to be able to "Tune Into" the natural dimensions that surround us. Remember - it's natural and since it's natural - you/they have nothing to fear.
I have many clients worried for their Psychic Children and trust me, with more information and better tools and knowledge in your hands, there is NOTHING to fear. I will get a few You Tube video's up on my website with tools that have changed my life as a Psychic Medium. I didn't become fearless until I was 30 years old, but I assure you with a few steps you can relieve any anxiety around spirit.
This is so simple it seems like a cliche. And though I rolled my eyes at the first few personal attempts - it works.
The #1 thing you can do is ask the Angels to "surround and protect you, your children and your home."
#2 Set boundaries within your home and property declaring that "only guides and angles are allowed to be IN your home at all times."
#3 Ask that any and all harmful energies or beings be taken outside immediately.
#4 Do it daily - why not. I do it every single night before bed and I can communicate with my Angles and Guides, but I still do it every single night because we accumulate energies throughout the day. Also, it helps you get comfortable setting healthy boundaries in your life and stay connected to these beautiful beings that are with you, protecting you.
To all of those non- Medium parents out there, please do these steps for your children. They (and you) deserve to have peace while in their own homes and it's not their job's to help out every Tom, Dick and Harry spirit that wants to talk to them...
Remember, there is nothing to fear. I promise....
Fast forward 25 years later I am at my son's three year check up. The Doctor says, "At this age they start to talk about seeing monsters and Ghosts. Just put some G.I Joe's in the window and they'll be ok." I smirked and felt irritated at the lack information she has. Putting G.I Joe's around a child that sees ghosts and other things is as affective as putting that G.I Joe in front of a speaker with music coming out and expecting the music to stop. Ghost, spirits and animals are a real thing. Not all people see them but that doesn't mean they are not there. Just as we cannot see (thank God) the hundreds of radio, TV, cell phone signals that surround us in every moment. If we have the proper equipment i.e. stereo, cell phone, TV, we can "tune in" to that signal and receive the information. That is what Psychic Children are doing. They have trained their soul through many life times of work to be able to "Tune Into" the natural dimensions that surround us. Remember - it's natural and since it's natural - you/they have nothing to fear.
I have many clients worried for their Psychic Children and trust me, with more information and better tools and knowledge in your hands, there is NOTHING to fear. I will get a few You Tube video's up on my website with tools that have changed my life as a Psychic Medium. I didn't become fearless until I was 30 years old, but I assure you with a few steps you can relieve any anxiety around spirit.
This is so simple it seems like a cliche. And though I rolled my eyes at the first few personal attempts - it works.
The #1 thing you can do is ask the Angels to "surround and protect you, your children and your home."
#2 Set boundaries within your home and property declaring that "only guides and angles are allowed to be IN your home at all times."
#3 Ask that any and all harmful energies or beings be taken outside immediately.
#4 Do it daily - why not. I do it every single night before bed and I can communicate with my Angles and Guides, but I still do it every single night because we accumulate energies throughout the day. Also, it helps you get comfortable setting healthy boundaries in your life and stay connected to these beautiful beings that are with you, protecting you.
To all of those non- Medium parents out there, please do these steps for your children. They (and you) deserve to have peace while in their own homes and it's not their job's to help out every Tom, Dick and Harry spirit that wants to talk to them...
Remember, there is nothing to fear. I promise....
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
"I've traveled oceans of time to find you" ~ Frances Ford Coppela's Dracula
"I've traveled Oceans of time to find you" ~ Dracula
I love this line. This line has stuck with me since I first heard it nearly 20 years ago. I loved how he remembers his true love no matter the years and the horrors his life has lived through. I love that in a single moment of seeing her he remembers the tenderness of his one love and everything fades to the back ground. Only she exists.
As the years go by and my interests change, I see this line as a symbol of reality. The reality that on our soul level, we remember. I'm reminded of it when I see three people that I met over 10 years ago still to this day know me more then my own family. I'm reminded of it when I was in New York 10 years ago for three days and three separate families took me in as their own and to this day are still close to me. I'm reminded of it when a culture or an accent fills my body with the comfort of a warm cookie.
It explains why when I was a little girl, I thought I was a 10 year old Russian girl with long straight brown hair. It explains why so people may find you repulsive while you shower them with love. They remember.
Years ago, I joined a gym. The first day of my arrival a man came around me and my body became alive with energy. It didn't matter what time I arrived at the gym, morning or evening, he would be walking in and out at the very same time. One day, as a joke, I said to him as we hit the door at the same time and noticed that we were parked next to each other, "I'll see you tomorrow." "Scary isn't it," he replied. Months of this wore on me with confusion. One day while in meditation I asked, "who is this guy and why are we so connected?" "His name is Robert. You've had many past lives together," my guides replied. I thought maybe that was his name in a former life, noted it in my journal and carried on. The next day at the gym I was standing buy the water fountain when a guy yelled out to THAT GUY, "Hey Robert!" I was in shock, his name in this life was the very name my guides gave me ~ Robert. I now understood the connection which I found fascinating, but as the months of connecting with him on the road as I drove, at the gym and discovered that he lived in my neighborhood, it became a little much for me. A colleague told me to "cut the cords" between us and ask that all past life energy and patterns be healed and returned. With some thought I did just that and a week later I knew he had left the gym entirely. It was confirmed a few days later by a friend.
You never know when you'll meet someone in your life now that you've loved many times before or whom you've had relationships with that are more complex, but I assure you each and everyone of us has this experience. Seeing someone that there is so much energy between the two of you you think you'll explode. It doesn't mean you should leave your husband or wife, it means that the soul remembers, and for that, it should be respected. And if it's too much and you're brave, ask your guides to cut the cords and heal all energies between the two of you so that life can go on.....
I love this line. This line has stuck with me since I first heard it nearly 20 years ago. I loved how he remembers his true love no matter the years and the horrors his life has lived through. I love that in a single moment of seeing her he remembers the tenderness of his one love and everything fades to the back ground. Only she exists.
As the years go by and my interests change, I see this line as a symbol of reality. The reality that on our soul level, we remember. I'm reminded of it when I see three people that I met over 10 years ago still to this day know me more then my own family. I'm reminded of it when I was in New York 10 years ago for three days and three separate families took me in as their own and to this day are still close to me. I'm reminded of it when a culture or an accent fills my body with the comfort of a warm cookie.
It explains why when I was a little girl, I thought I was a 10 year old Russian girl with long straight brown hair. It explains why so people may find you repulsive while you shower them with love. They remember.
Years ago, I joined a gym. The first day of my arrival a man came around me and my body became alive with energy. It didn't matter what time I arrived at the gym, morning or evening, he would be walking in and out at the very same time. One day, as a joke, I said to him as we hit the door at the same time and noticed that we were parked next to each other, "I'll see you tomorrow." "Scary isn't it," he replied. Months of this wore on me with confusion. One day while in meditation I asked, "who is this guy and why are we so connected?" "His name is Robert. You've had many past lives together," my guides replied. I thought maybe that was his name in a former life, noted it in my journal and carried on. The next day at the gym I was standing buy the water fountain when a guy yelled out to THAT GUY, "Hey Robert!" I was in shock, his name in this life was the very name my guides gave me ~ Robert. I now understood the connection which I found fascinating, but as the months of connecting with him on the road as I drove, at the gym and discovered that he lived in my neighborhood, it became a little much for me. A colleague told me to "cut the cords" between us and ask that all past life energy and patterns be healed and returned. With some thought I did just that and a week later I knew he had left the gym entirely. It was confirmed a few days later by a friend.
You never know when you'll meet someone in your life now that you've loved many times before or whom you've had relationships with that are more complex, but I assure you each and everyone of us has this experience. Seeing someone that there is so much energy between the two of you you think you'll explode. It doesn't mean you should leave your husband or wife, it means that the soul remembers, and for that, it should be respected. And if it's too much and you're brave, ask your guides to cut the cords and heal all energies between the two of you so that life can go on.....
Sunday, August 21, 2011
Nearing September
September,
As the gentle shift in air grows daily, I'm reminded of how much I love September. I love it so much that when I reflect on major changes, for the better in my life, most of them happened in September. September is when I joined my first Real Estate office shortly after high school. September is when I got my first apartment. September is when I moved to New York City 12 years ago and met people and friendships that I had dreamed of. September is when our family moved from the East Coast to Colorado and September is when I'll be headed back to New York to pursue another dream of mine.
I wonder if each of us has a time of year that inspires us? My sister made major changes in her life around Christmas: Got married around Christmas, bought her first house around Christmas and her second house if I remember correctly.
I can't wait to head back in doors for warmth, reflection, snuggling, blankets, writing, reading, warm food and drink and an excuse to be still and listen to what my dreams and heart are beating for.
As the gentle shift in air grows daily, I'm reminded of how much I love September. I love it so much that when I reflect on major changes, for the better in my life, most of them happened in September. September is when I joined my first Real Estate office shortly after high school. September is when I got my first apartment. September is when I moved to New York City 12 years ago and met people and friendships that I had dreamed of. September is when our family moved from the East Coast to Colorado and September is when I'll be headed back to New York to pursue another dream of mine.
I wonder if each of us has a time of year that inspires us? My sister made major changes in her life around Christmas: Got married around Christmas, bought her first house around Christmas and her second house if I remember correctly.
I can't wait to head back in doors for warmth, reflection, snuggling, blankets, writing, reading, warm food and drink and an excuse to be still and listen to what my dreams and heart are beating for.
Sunday, August 7, 2011
Go with your gut
Medium:
When I first joined a Meditation/Intuitive development group I was terrified. "What if I'm not. What if I don't do a good job. What if I can't do it on command." I told our host and mentor Debra that I would just quietly watch during my first attendance. As I sat among 15 people I didn't think that I belonged there. I sat next to a dark haired woman named Sarina. She was friendly and spoke to me as we were preparing to begin. The time came for us to break into groups and "read" each other. The only thing I wanted to break into was a sweat. There were four of us including Sarina. I felt calm in her presence. Although I told myself that I would not participate only observe, I found that I couldn't keep my mouth shut. It was my first stranger validation. I couldn't stop myself. I was telling people what order of siblings they were and what their relationships were like with their loved ones. Sarina kept encouraging me and I kept reading and talking. I left high as a kite that night. It was my first intentional personal validation of my Psychic abilities.
As the months went by I felt a deep connection to Sarina. My mind and heart were blown when she did not attend our group for reasons that weren't my business. I stayed connected to her through coffee's and lunches. Though I was encouraged to befriend different woman in the group, I stayed close to Sarnia.
Weeks ago the Bella Sparks magazine was having it's annual Kristy's Big Night out fundraiser. It's in honor of the loss of Donna and Bob's beloved daughter Kristy that crossed over due to a car accident. The proceeds go to women in need. Sarina asked if I could help out and donate my time "reading" for the attendees. I said "no." The thought of being among a ton of people in line looking at me scared me to death. Sarina in her direct but gentle way asked again, "it's for a great cause and you'll have fun," she persisted. "Ok, I'll do it," I said amused at her ability to say the right thing to motivate me.
I snuck into the Hilton Hotel that warm Friday night. I asked for our colleague Bobby so she could tell me where to sit and how it all worked. Sarina marched up to me and told me to sit with her and share the table. I sat down and a line formed. I felt alive and fulfilled as I sat with each client. The information was not crystal clear as it can be when I'm alone with someone. But the beautiful spirits that sat before me were patient and smiled lovingly. 10:30pm rolled around and Sarina, my hero again, told the line waiting to see me that due to the time, I would not be taking another client. People gave me the warmest smile as they took my business card and scattered. I was humbled. Humbled at the level of love that I felt from everyone that attended and humbled at the joy I feel doing the thing I love. And again, I would not have had the experience at all if it wasn't for my buddy - Sarina.
No matter what happens to reationships around you, if you love someone just because you do, honor it. You never know the amazing places it will take you.
When I first joined a Meditation/Intuitive development group I was terrified. "What if I'm not. What if I don't do a good job. What if I can't do it on command." I told our host and mentor Debra that I would just quietly watch during my first attendance. As I sat among 15 people I didn't think that I belonged there. I sat next to a dark haired woman named Sarina. She was friendly and spoke to me as we were preparing to begin. The time came for us to break into groups and "read" each other. The only thing I wanted to break into was a sweat. There were four of us including Sarina. I felt calm in her presence. Although I told myself that I would not participate only observe, I found that I couldn't keep my mouth shut. It was my first stranger validation. I couldn't stop myself. I was telling people what order of siblings they were and what their relationships were like with their loved ones. Sarina kept encouraging me and I kept reading and talking. I left high as a kite that night. It was my first intentional personal validation of my Psychic abilities.
As the months went by I felt a deep connection to Sarina. My mind and heart were blown when she did not attend our group for reasons that weren't my business. I stayed connected to her through coffee's and lunches. Though I was encouraged to befriend different woman in the group, I stayed close to Sarnia.
Weeks ago the Bella Sparks magazine was having it's annual Kristy's Big Night out fundraiser. It's in honor of the loss of Donna and Bob's beloved daughter Kristy that crossed over due to a car accident. The proceeds go to women in need. Sarina asked if I could help out and donate my time "reading" for the attendees. I said "no." The thought of being among a ton of people in line looking at me scared me to death. Sarina in her direct but gentle way asked again, "it's for a great cause and you'll have fun," she persisted. "Ok, I'll do it," I said amused at her ability to say the right thing to motivate me.
I snuck into the Hilton Hotel that warm Friday night. I asked for our colleague Bobby so she could tell me where to sit and how it all worked. Sarina marched up to me and told me to sit with her and share the table. I sat down and a line formed. I felt alive and fulfilled as I sat with each client. The information was not crystal clear as it can be when I'm alone with someone. But the beautiful spirits that sat before me were patient and smiled lovingly. 10:30pm rolled around and Sarina, my hero again, told the line waiting to see me that due to the time, I would not be taking another client. People gave me the warmest smile as they took my business card and scattered. I was humbled. Humbled at the level of love that I felt from everyone that attended and humbled at the joy I feel doing the thing I love. And again, I would not have had the experience at all if it wasn't for my buddy - Sarina.
No matter what happens to reationships around you, if you love someone just because you do, honor it. You never know the amazing places it will take you.
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